Today was a very strange day. It seems like nothing was going right for any one. First at the grocery store they way over charged us and we had to go back and straigten that out causing some weird feelings. We decided to go for some icecream which we haven't done in several months. First the girl kept hearing our order wrong then the boy kept dropping the change and the straws and napkins, making him feel weird. We no more than get out of the parking lot and in the middle of the street a woman is screaming at another woman to get the F out of her car. The anger was like a black cloud. It was just plain shocking. We decided that no matter how nice it was outside that we would be better off just going home and being by ourselves. It was just so weird like the whole world was out of kilter there for a short time. Made me feel kind of sick and I just wonder what is going on.

Life is often what you make it and sometimes it is what is handed to you. What happens from there on is how you choose to live it.

I often find myself wondering what my life has been worth. What is my legacy to my children and to this world? So many things that I thought were important seem to have just slipped away. The things that I loved my children think are just the sill whims of an old woman. Why were these things so important to me and why doesn't any one else care about them or see their importance? Why does everyone think they know what I need or should want better than I do. If I ask for help why does it have to be on someone elses terms. Why can't I just get the help I want instead of what someone feels like giving me. All my life I have tried to help other people and I have tried to do it their way. I used to work in home health taking care of elderly people. Some of them had some pretty odd ways of doing things but they had been doing it that way for many years and who am I to say their way is wrong. I would just smile and say okay Miss Pearl we will do it like that. It always brought a smile to her face and made her feel good. Isn't that what we should do? Try to make people feel better about their situations? I just want that sme courtesy extended to me. Would love to hear what others think about this subject. You can bet you will hear more from me.